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Drama Drama Everywhere

I thought I'd cleared this up regarding permanent resident status being a legal thing as opposed to a "where in the world you live" thing, but "Tayfife" has been whining and crying to Blake about this, so I thought I'd just post his original e-mail to shut him up.

For the record though? It's not my job to do this or clear up misinformation. "Tayfife" or any of the others who are freaking out right now over an Encyclopedia Dramatica article on the contest that came out this week or Nissan themselves are more than welcome to create blogs or write press releases or whatnot of their very own and write whatever they damn well please. In fact, when CubeCommunity.ca finally comes up, why don't they do just that?

Also? Certain folks are pointing fingers at me and there is a witch hunt going on in a private Facebook group for the 50 winners as to who wrote about some of them on ED and no matter how many times I say I didn't do it, the fact remains that certain people have seemingly stopped speaking to me and accusations have been made over rumour and assumption, the exact same things these people are pissed about, making them hypocrites.

The fact of the matter is, it doesn't matter who wrote the ED article. What matters is, are the accusations true? Everyone knows this contest was botched from the very beginning, none of that is new information. Everyone who was part of the contest has opinions on who deserved to win and who didn't, as well as why certain people won. But I was shocked, along with everyone else, that certain contestants had previous ties to judges. Four of them. All I hear is how pissed the winners are and how pissed Angie Kramer is, but why isn't anyone addressing these very real, very serious accusations? There is actual evidence and pictures of contestants with judges, so we're not just talking rumours here.

All I've seen so far, and this is hard for me to say because a couple of the people targeted for "lulz", which is Encyclopedia Dramatica's thing, are supposedly my friends, is a lot of people crying that someone said something mean about them on the internet and to that I just have to shake my head and kinda laugh because these people have NO clue about the real internet or how things really work. These people are, for the most part, web 2.0ers who think everything's always been sunshine, MySpace, Facebook, Twitter and rainbows.

Encyclopedia Dramatica's been around for a fairly long time and this is what they do. Wherever there's drama on the internet, they report about it. That's why it's called Encyclopedia Dramatica. If any of the people who are up in arms about this really took a good look at the site, they would see this, but it doesn't appear any of them have, so I'll intersperse this post with some links.

Half the time ED doesn't get their facts straight and they don't care. It's almost impossible to take legal action against them because they rely on user generated content and legally aren't responsible for their content. To my knowledge, no one to date has been successful in making anything stick. Furthermore, they've gone after MUCH bigger fish than Nissan or Cap C or any of these contestants who - no offence to them - are ants to ED. They mean nothing, as they can do nothing. And the more upset they get over what's been written about them on ED, the harder ED laughs. And they're watching. Don't be so naive as to think they aren't. In fact they're probably reading everything I'm saying right now as this blog is linked in that article and they used some of my quotes, so they know who I am too. And they know I'm just as butthurt over the contest as these people are that strangers said mean things about them on the internet. They're probably dying of laughter because with this one, the "lulz" just keep on coming. In fact, it's probably gone unnoticed by most of the Twitter crowd, but ED's made the article their "article of the now" on the very front page of their site.

And that's the other thing, the other reason why I wasn't going to say anything about any of this: I've been on the internet a long time and I've not only been on the internet a long time, but I've spent 18 hours a day, every day, on the internet for a long time and I tend to run in social circles with untoward folk that run the gamut between hackers and trolls. I've never kept this a secret. There's a link to the Stile Project forum [NSFW], mostly full of porn and gore, on my site that's been there for many years. I also most certainly have ties to people who have ties to Encyclopedia Dramatica too, as well as 4chan and many other "seedy" places on the internet. (But you never really know who has ties to what, especially in the cases of ED and 4chan because everyone wants to keep their anonymity and people rarely admit to anything.) And I can even see how that makes me suspect. But I'm not the only one. Out of 500 contestants, 450 of which were losers, plus the thousands of people who voted for them, do you really think I'm the ONLY one with connections to these places? It's like I said in my post about mental illness, out of 500 contestants, do you really think I'm the only one with a mental health issue? Use your brains.

I feel like I'm being thrown under the bus for being transparent, for being honest, for being me. I feel like the biggest reason people are pointing fingers at me is because I happen to know a lot about the internet, particularly the social aspects, and its history and well...sorry? I can't really help knowing what I know and I mean, that's not much to go on. Yes, I've been vocal about my displeasure at how this contest was run and how it turned out, but...if I wanted to write about that, I have this blog for that purpose, like I'm doing right now. That wasn't supposed to be its sole purpose, but there it is all the same. Oh, and this is my first update in almost 2 weeks. If I had something to say, I'd have said it by now.

As I've said before, I've been blogging and a pretty hardcore user of the internet for over a decade now and I've always prided myself on the fact that I've always been "Sunny" everywhere I go, that I've always been accountable for every single word I've ever put on the internet. There's not one word that I've written that I haven't attached my name to, not now, not ever. Anonymity isn't my style. (Partially because I have a giant ego, partially because it's what I expect from others.)

In every single post on this blog I've refrained from calling out specific contestants or winners and the ones I have spoken about, including Taylor Pfeifer whose name I'm only using now because he wants me to, I've never put a name to because I don't think it's my place to do that, especially when it's just my opinion on things (which means nothing) and I KNOW I don't have all the facts. I'm also not a journalist writing a professional article here either, I'm writing a stream of conscious blog that about 100ish people read on a slow day, triple or quadruple that if I promote the post on Twitter. It doesn't even matter what I say and I'm not held to ANY standards except my own, especially not that bullshit Word of Mouth Association crap the Hypercube winners are supposedly legally held to. I can say whatever I want.

Taylor Pfeifer, who started getting nasty with Blake via e-mail last night (which was very un-Christ-like...typical though, I guess) suggested I take this blog down as it's only bringing negativity to our home (??) and that I should start a new blog where everything's unicorns and lollipops. And that's just it, he doesn't know me, obviously, he hasn't done his homework. This is blog 4 of 4, at the moment and the one on the bottom of the totem pole as far as importance goes. And it really chafes my ass that he said I should take this blog down (won't happen) because I've been thinking that I probably wasn't going to update it anymore because I already have 3 other blogs to maintain and this one just further segregates my audience and causes more clutter for them as things get x-posted and between this blog, my sunnycrittenden blog, my site's blog and my site's RSS feed, some people are going to be bombarded with the same posts up to 4 times in a single day which means they'll just start unfollowing things and if they start unfollowing things, like this blog for example, what's the point of even doing it? But in not updating this blog, I don't want someone like Taylor Pfeifer thinking they had ANYTHING to do with it. I don't want anyone who's been pointing fingers at me over this goddamn ED article thinking that they had ANYTHING to do with it.

And there are two other things that Taylor Pfeifer said to Blake tonight that I need to get off my chest. The first was that because I've been blogging for 10 years, I should be used to confrontation on the internet and he said something about confrontational things being the best things to blog about. Again, Taylor Pfiefer hasn't got a bloody clue as to what he's talking about. As most of my readers know because they aren't total n00bs talking out of their asses, a blog can be about anything and most blogs I wouldn't consider to be confrontational at all, especially mine.(Well, this post might be...a little bit...but overall, I'd say my web presence is pretty non-confrontational.) I've been blogging about myself and my family and my life for the past 10 years and there's really not a whole lot to be confrontational about. And no, the best posts aren't about confrontational things, at least not in my corner of the internet; the best posts are the things that touch people on a deeper level and make them laugh, cry or think. I have a friend who blogs about vegan cooking. I have another friend who does nothing but blog about her sexual exploits. I have another friend who blogs about what she wears every day and another who blogs about what she makes her husband for dinner. All semi-popular blogs, none of which are confrontational in the least.

My own blog? God even saying this out loud is going to probably screw me, but in the 10 years I've been doing this, I can count the number of trolls I've had, real trolls, not just assholes passing by, on one hand. Even during the so-called "wild wild west" days of the internet where WORSE sites than Encyclopedia Dramatica existed that I found myself on fairly regularly for no other reason than to well, troll me. The difference between ED and those sites is that ED "does it for the lulz" whereas the sites of olde existed to destroy lives. I'm talking about people having child protective services being called on them for no other reason than because a mother decided to take her clothes off in front of a webcam after the kids went to bed or people being arrested because someone tipped off the police that they had nudes of 17 year olds...and it was the 17 year olds that sent the nudes, as well as tipped off the police. Encyclopedia Dramatica? Well, it's something, but nowhere near as bad as some of the sites that preceded it. Bigger, yes, but as I said, ED is supposed to be funny, although admittedly only to people with a certain sense of humour, and those sites existed to be mean and inflict real world consequences on people who were, 9 times out of 10, innocent of whatever it was they were being accused of. These sites went way beyond trolling.

Back to my own dealings with trolls? I'm so transparent and self-deprecating, it's usually not worth the effort. My last troll was a schizophrenic man from the UK who posted conspiracy theories and had conversations with himself in my blogs' comments. I turned off anonymous posting and set it so that only people on my friends list could post comments, thus starving him of his outlet and he eventually lost interest. My latest troll? He doesn't like my art work and tries to insult me by saying what I do is "craft" and not "art". I don't care. Also "he" is probably a "she" and I know exactly where "they" hail from. But that's a whole other thing.

My point here is that when you put yourself out there on the internet, you automatically make yourself a potential target. That's just how the internet works. Nissan put 50 people "out there" and with 450 unhappy people in this contest + everyone who voted for those people, there's gonna be a significant number who are going to want to throw darts at those targets. Encyclopedia Dramatica is one of the ways to do it.

Ah, the second thing. Taylor Pfeifer said that this blog is "spiralling down every winners morality and joy". Again, it's not my job to keep up the morale of anyone, let alone winners in a corporate contest I'm not getting paid to blog about. This is the internet. Reading is optional. If you don't like it? If it's affecting you negatively? Don't fucking read it! It's as simple as that. I'm not doing anything to anyone, if this truly is the case then you are doing it to yourself by coming here. He also said that this blog was bad, more or less because it gives a voice for the losers of the contest to air their gripes on the contest and the winners and the judges and to that I say, "so what?" The losers are supposed to what, be silenced? They don't deserve to have a voice because they didn't win? What kind of fascist bullshit is that? And as I said in the beginning of this post, every single winner in this contest is more than welcome to make a blog of their own and voice any opinion they feel they need to voice to boost "morale".

As I've seen a lot of people say in the past couple of days, "social networking goes both ways" and to that, I'll add, so does word of mouth. This was a word of mouth campaign and Nissan can't go crying about it now because the word coming out of the mouths isn't entirely positive. They knew the risks going in and made some questionably bad decisions along the way. That's certainly not my fault and I'm not going to shut up about it just because someone chooses to read what I write and gets upset. Again, it's not my job to go tiptoeing around other people's feelings on a blog that you have to surf to yourself in order to read.

And once again, the entire point of this blog was SUPPOSED to be life after the contest and coming up with a new immersion therapy plan, but as I said in one of the (many) paragraphs above, it's doubtful that I'm going to continue with this blog after this post. Beside the fact that I already have all these blogs and my site to maintain, the fact of the matter is, I've spent the last week and a half stressed to the gills about getting three paintings finished before my surgery in 3 weeks for an art show shortly after because despite popular belief, I have been going on with my life and I'm nowhere near the sore loser I've been made out to be, and then this ED thing happened which compounded my already staggering anxiety and I simply don't need this shit! As someone once said, the best revenge is to live a good life and that's precisely what I've been trying to do, hence not updating this blog in almost 2 weeks.

I also think that maybe it's time to cut ties with some of the people I've met through the contest simply because I'm sick of hearing about this stupid contest. There are 5 or 6 friends who truly are friends that I'm going to maintain relationships with, especially since I'm working on a project with one of them, but the others? When it really comes right down to it, they're disposable. They're people I met on the internet, never even met in person at the Hypercube events and they're just not really all that important to me or my life in the grand scheme. I took my Hypercube-related searches off of my Twitter a while back, so once I ditch these "friends", I should be Hypercube-free.

I've also changed my mind about my participation in CubeCommunity.ca once it's launched because what my friend recalcitrant said about it a few posts back was true: "I don't know about you but I certainly don't want to be using a car corporation's website for my networking activities for creative pursuits." I don't want to be used again by this corporation. Also, I think the site's going to ultimately bomb and I'm not going down with a sinking ship. Artistically and career-wise I'd been doing pretty okay for myself before this contest and I'll be fine now that it's finished. The only thing that burns my ass is that during the 3+ months of the contest, I put off other projects in favour of trying to stay ahead of the curve and win and now I have a lot of catching up to do. (Like finishing 2 more paintings POST-surgery for an art show where the deadline is September.)

Anyway, I guess that's all I have to say about the Hypercube contest. If anyone's interested in following the current drama, I suggest joining Twitter and making a "hypercube" or "thehypercube" (or both) search to your feed or follow the media, if they pick it up. (Did I mention Time magazine often quotes Encyclopedia Dramatica? It's not unheard of for ED articles to get mainstream press.) Personally, I'm going to be mostly offline getting these paintings done, watching movies with my husband, having sleepovers with my kids and the neighbourhood kids, enjoying my summer and recovering from surgery.

As for this blog? Well, it's a paid account and I'm not wasting $25 +$10 for the domain so it stays up, as is, for the next year whether anyone likes it or not.

So, without further ado, here's Taylor Pfeifer's e-mail to me, which apparently Nissan themselves contacted him and asked him to send, so he'll STFU and stop contacting us:

---------------------------- Original Message ----------------------------
From: "TaY !" <circa_dude15@hotmail.com>
Date: Tue, July 14, 2009 3:38 pm
To: cubeless@sunnycrittenden.com

Hey Sunny, This is Taylor Pfeifer, AKA TAYFIFE. I'm displeased to hear that you didn't win a cube. I just want you to have your facts straight before you may, or may not keep blogging about me. I am the guy who lived in california.

- I was there for a 10 month internship at a church with multiple entries into central american countries, and entries back in to Canada.
- I was awarded the car when I was on Canadian Soil (June 23rd 2009)
- I am legally, logistically a Canadian Citizen and permanent resident.
- I do not live in California anymore, I live in Saskatoon SK CANADA, i've been back for a while.
- Therefore, at no point will I ever be liscencing the cube in California, or anywhere in the US, I am permanently residing in Canada; contrary to popular belief.

This isn't a rebuttle; I just saw that you had some of your facts mixed up.

I hope I brought some clarity to your confusion.. if you STILL don't believe I live in Canada, maybe run some of those IP tests you claim to use.



One more thing? I'm turning off comments because I can't be arsed to keep up with them, but if you have something important to say, you all know my e-mail address.

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This is the blog of a strange little girl who lost a contest to win a car.